I try so hard not to try at all. I'm so good, so much better around people, around you, but they leave me alone, you leave me alone, and it all floods back because I start to think. I don't want to go home. Home does not exist anymore. I don't want to be left alone, stop leaving me alone. I never want to sleep again, please don't let me sleep again. Soundproof my room so I can play piano at 3 o'clock in the morning. Take me out for drinks and motorcycle rides. Take me to recording studios and throw me up on stage. Lock me in a white room with a bunch of paints and see what I can do. Take my hand and dare me to take you on the biggest adventure of your life, I promise I won't disappoint. I want to watch the stars, and stick my head out the window of a speeding car and scream, "ROCK N ROLL, EVERYBODY!"
Just don't leave me alone with my thoughts in this house full of insults and walls and chairs and plates and pillows that remind me of the pain of the past that infiltrates every moment of today.
Take me out. And never let me sleep again.